To Know One’s Own Mind

𝘛𝘰 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘰𝘯𝘦’𝘴 𝘰𝘸𝘯 𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘩𝘰𝘳𝘵 𝘰𝘧 𝘭𝘪𝘧𝘦-𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘨.⁠ 🌸

These photos were originally taken in 2018. I am not sure what convinced past-Naomi that a shed door made a good backdrop… 🙈 But I do know that she was happy. ⁠

I also know that afterwards she made herself very unhappy, by convincing herself that it was a waste of time. That her photos were ugly, vain, and unworthy.⁠

⁠It has taken years of perseverance to heal from the insecure space I was living in, and I am so freaking proud of myself.⁠ 💖⁠

To anyone that is struggling with this too, I know how rough it is and I don’t want to contribute any more ‘toxic positivity’ to what is already floating around.⁠

Because it is not as simple as “just post it”, “get over it”, and “think happy thoughts”. It takes a lot of hard yakka.⁠

Accepting that I cannot be happy and positive every day, and that ‘failure’ is in fact a valid option called ✨ redirection ✨ was the best thing I could ever do. ⁠
It was also the hardest.⁠

I hope sharing my experiences will help others to start that inner conversation, to start the healing process. 🦋⁠

Behind our ‘profiles’ and shiny photos we are all real humans trying to navigate the intricacies of life.⁠

You don’t need anyone’s permission to be you, to do you, and to share the thing that you made because you were happy.⁠

You also don’t need anyone’s permission to acknowledge your bad days, take a break, save your photos and thoughts for another day when you’re feeling strong enough to share them.⁠


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